i had finally been able to trust someone....
no... more then just "someone"...
i was able to trust two people...
but... they only knew me as a girl....
i Physically am a boy... but my heart is of a girl...
a more eastern kind of child I've been called before... stuck in the west...
wishing to be accepted by these people...
Alex...Cory...
even if i am not Physically female...
i still love you guys...
so it pains me...
it breaks this glass heart...
that i hurt you...
i never wanted to hurt you guys...never...never...
so please forgive this pathetically sad wolf that you tamed... and loved... and cared for...
for "she" has told you everything about "her"...
for "she" has spoke "her" heart to you...
.... but "she" is a "he"....
but he still is the same wolf...
so please forgive him.................
I was hurt for quite some time, I'll tell you. Didn't feel good that such a great friend would lie to me like that for so long. I felt pretty betrayed by you. But angels forgive. I told you that no matter what I'd always be there for you, I'd care for you, and I'd love you. And I intend to keep my word. I still love you sweetheart, you're still one of my angels. I'll stay here with you even though you hurt me like you did. Just please don't hurt anyone like that again...
ReplyDelete~Angelord~
Love ya sweetheart, always will.
Thank you....
ReplyDeleteyou don't know how much ease you have given my heart....
Honestly... i wanted to tell you sooner...but...
i just thought you would want to kill me...
but when i heard that you wanted me to live with you... well... i thought that you should have know the truth before you put me in your heart again...
i promise to never hurt you... or anyone again...
i promise...
i... i've told you of my wish to be a wolf... my reason was as a wolf you dont need to be looked on by human society... i guess thats a reason i've always wanted to be an Animal... no... a Wolf...
i know it seems kinda mushy but... well i cant help it ok...
love ya too... Big Brother
p.s. i hope for your heart to heal quickly and without pain... for it would kill me to see you hurt again...
Well, I don't get why you'd think I'd want to kill you. That just kinda confuses me unless you thought that when we first met. You know me by now, it's pretty hard to piss me off. You don't have to keep secrets or anything with me, I ain't got nobody to tell anyways.
ReplyDeleteIt's good that you won't hurt anyone like that anymore. Truthfully, I think that's all I could ever want from you. That, and for you to just keep being yourself. Keep on being your same old lovable self.
I get what you're talking bout, everything...
And you shouldn't worry about me. Thanks for the words, but I've done been through hell, still going through it, and I'll keep going through it no problem. I'm used to it, can't really hurt me much anymore. And if you do, I can't feel it. Probably why I never gave Alex a straight answer bout your blog. I've been venting anyways on my own blog.
Anyways sweetheart, you take care. Anytime you need someone to talk to, you know I'm always here. You can get ahold of me on Facebook, the blogsite, Fiesta, and I always keep my phone on if you ever want to exchange numbers and text me (if you got a cell phone that is...)
Love ya sweetheart, always will.
p.s. You know how I said I wanted you to move in? Well, a change in gender ain't gonna change my thoughts about it. As I say: All angels are welcome in my heaven.
p.s.s. Next time you're on Fiesta let me know. I deleted all three of your characters by accident, meaning to leave your cleric on my friends list. It already looks empty without you in it...
hee hee im glad you missed me cory X3
ReplyDelete...but i cant go on fiesta for a while DX
.....sorry...
ill be on maybe the 15th or 16th...
i hope @.@
Well of course I miss you silly!!
ReplyDeleteI'll just keep waiting for you sweetheart, Alex is gonna let me know the moment you're on and I'll be right on to see you sweetie.
Don't forget, I'm here to talk on other places too. I'm on Facebook all the time if you ever want to chat there.
Take care sweetheart, love ya.